what it means.....

What does it mean to be the oldest child? I know what it means because I am the oldest child. I think it means you are responsible for more than your share. It means you are supposed to protect and support the younger ones. It means you are the test trial child... so you basically get off easy on everything. Basically! It means that when the beatings are comeing and you know its going to be bad... you take the blame for fear of the younger syblings well being. It means that you are the one to be the free babysitter and handy maid. It means you will hate and fight with your parents the most. It means you will argue and very much dislike the annoying pest you call brother or/and sister.
It means you are the strongest, the hero, and the one everyone will lean on.
What does it mean to be a young struggling wife? It means you stress the most. Dont want anyhting to do with cuddleing or sex. You want to cry all the time but you put on a brave happy face for your husband. You clip coupons and remake the budget everyweek just to try and save more. If you get sick you pretend its allergies and ignore it. You keep a clean house and a hot meal. You pretend nothing is wrong when you wanna scream what happend to all the jobs and what happened to us? You wanna just be held tight and pop some asprin and go to sleep for a long while. Because you know if your asleep your not stressing over how are you going to eat this month..
What does it mean to have no friends? It means that you stay home every weekend. It means you have your homework done on time because there is nothing better to do. It means you watch every disney or childhood movie you have. It means you feel alone and cry late at night when everyone is asleep. It means your adult life is hard but your teen years are harder because there is no outlet to laugh and have fun.
What does it mean to love? The hardest question to answer in life. In order to love you must love yourself... everyone says it I know. But to love, its sweet its amazing and Its not all its cracked up to be.. To love means many things and everyone has an opinion. Love means 50/50. You give yourself to that person in the most sensual and self-less way. You will give your life for that person to be happy.. You will wait till you die for that person. You will work your butt off so that person will have what he or she desires most. You will fight more with that person than anyone because you love them. Then you will make up in the sweetest way possible, just so in the future you will fight again. You will follow that person to the end of the earth.. but next week you will problably fight and sleep in different rooms. You make breakfast in bed or do the laundry or make dinner... so that the other person may smile. You say please and thankyou. You love eachother so much, you are brutally honest to eachother. Yet if one cries the other will do something so stupid or crazy you just have to laugh. Love is a constant battle. A battle of who loves who more. It is fun times and screaming and crying. So what does it really mean to love? It means to really live.