I have just recently read a new book called Crystal Moon. It was a really amazing book if you like the young adult and fantasy books. I love those books like Fable Haven and Narnia and of course Twilight. They are really good series. I guess I have been reading alot of series books lately. The next one can never come out fast enough.
I have had a rough day today. We finalized the papers for our apartment. We still have to bring a few things Sat. before we can get the key's. It took forever to get our renters insurance info. We had to pay in order to get our info and my husband and mom don't get along so its been really hard because I am stuck in the middle. I hear from both of them about the other one and I hate it.
I want to agree with both of them and i disagree with both of them. I am beyond stress I am PMS'ing and I don't care anymore!No one is looking at my blog.
I just can't stand that no one talks to me on myspace anymore so I am debating on deleting it. I can't wait to move out cause hopefully then my husband will be happier.
GOOD THINGS: I shall take this moment to reflect on this week's good things!
1 I got my husband to go swimming in the pool with me.
2 I am going to be able to fix my car.
3 I have been able to spend time with my mom and have fun.
4 Our rent was only $99 so we saved 300.
5 I finally got a hold of my cousin to help us Sunday!
6 I made a new friend who happens to be the author of Crystal Moon (Awesome book)
7 I was invited to a new sight about books! I love it.
8 I was able to watch Coraline and it was great.
9 I made burgers and steak fries! Yumm!!
10 I figured out that we will be able to save a good deal of money depending on how we spend it.
11 My husband found a beautiful book case next to the dumpster and now it is mine! mwahahahaha
So that is my good reflections for this week. I think I will make it my goal to try and reflect all the good things that happen in my week and write them down. I am hoping to get a journal a really nice one for my birthday and a couple good movies and books! Wow reflecting made me feel better. Talk at ya later. Autumn
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Moving out.
Hey everybody! I'm so excited! We are moving on the first to our own apartment. We are very excited... My husband just got his one month review and well I have to tell you, KING SOOPER SUCKS! I think they are harrassing him. He is faster than alot of his co-workers and they put all the mess up's on him. They basically told him if he doesnt get faster and doesnt do everything right that they will fire him. I think thats stupid considering.
He wants to get a new job but in about a year we will have insurance and I dont want him to quit or give up but its his dissision. When we move I intend to get a job. Maybe at a different kings just so we can have extra cash and insurance. Also incase he gets a different job I know we have enough money to make the bills and stuff. This really worries and bothers me. I dont know whats going to happen.
He wants to get a new job but in about a year we will have insurance and I dont want him to quit or give up but its his dissision. When we move I intend to get a job. Maybe at a different kings just so we can have extra cash and insurance. Also incase he gets a different job I know we have enough money to make the bills and stuff. This really worries and bothers me. I dont know whats going to happen.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
GOAL: Three weeks
My goal is for me and my husband to move out in three weeks. I hope we can do this. He got hired at another job. So now he works two full time jobs. I just hope he has enough time to sleep and eat between jobs. I might have to get a job too. We got another bill today. It was for the doctor alone. $710.00 I hate this. We already have two different bills on payment plans I tried to call today and put this one on a payment plan. They just told me that I need to go to the hospital and get charity.. Its stupid and it doesnt make any sense.
I hope I can figure it this is out.
I hope I can figure it this is out.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
The Condom! A funny Story
This is a very funny story. Today I spent the day with my mom. We had alot of fun. Then I came home..
My husband was acting strange and very worried and depressed. We went outside and talked. Apparently he had found a condom by the bathroom and his first thought was that I was cheating on him. It hurt at the time because I would never do something like that to him.
I didn't know where it had come from. Neither did he know either. We went inside still stressed and confused about this fricken condom. Where had it come from and how did it get here?
My mom asked me what was wrong. At first I was a little reluctant to tell her. I caved and told her that my husband had found a condom. She started laughing.
She told me about how she had found two of my condoms that she had given me from like forever ago. Also how she had put them in a basket in the closet. The same basket that I had grabbed some razors from the other day. It made total sense and I started to laugh.
When I grabbed the razors I must have grabbed the condom too. I didn't see it and it must have slipped out when I took them to the bathroom. I told my husband and he was so relived about this. He didn't laugh because he was stressing so much over this condom that it made him sick.
My mom couldn't stop giggling because she wished he would have thought that they might be hers. We wouldn't think of that one because she hasn't dated forever.. lol. I look back and think its hilarious!!
My husband was acting strange and very worried and depressed. We went outside and talked. Apparently he had found a condom by the bathroom and his first thought was that I was cheating on him. It hurt at the time because I would never do something like that to him.
I didn't know where it had come from. Neither did he know either. We went inside still stressed and confused about this fricken condom. Where had it come from and how did it get here?
My mom asked me what was wrong. At first I was a little reluctant to tell her. I caved and told her that my husband had found a condom. She started laughing.
She told me about how she had found two of my condoms that she had given me from like forever ago. Also how she had put them in a basket in the closet. The same basket that I had grabbed some razors from the other day. It made total sense and I started to laugh.
When I grabbed the razors I must have grabbed the condom too. I didn't see it and it must have slipped out when I took them to the bathroom. I told my husband and he was so relived about this. He didn't laugh because he was stressing so much over this condom that it made him sick.
My mom couldn't stop giggling because she wished he would have thought that they might be hers. We wouldn't think of that one because she hasn't dated forever.. lol. I look back and think its hilarious!!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Rest In Piece Michael Jackson..
I know that right now everyone is going crazy over the untimely death of M.J. We all loved him and watched him grow up from a young man to "The King of Pop". He was truly an amazing human being. I know it has been hard on us. His music was a miracle to our race.
I know for me his music always made me smile. It kept me strong and smiling when I was sick. I would dance or even clean house while listening to his powerful voice. He did so much for everyone across the world. But he never knew just how much he did for his fans. The people who weren't part of his charities, the ones who never met him. Those people who only knew him through his music.
He was an inspiration for us all. He will forever live in our hearts and through his music. He will always make us smile and laugh. He will make us cry and feel. Today we all cry, smile, laugh, and remember as one the amazing Michael. We love you michael you will forever live on.
I know for me his music always made me smile. It kept me strong and smiling when I was sick. I would dance or even clean house while listening to his powerful voice. He did so much for everyone across the world. But he never knew just how much he did for his fans. The people who weren't part of his charities, the ones who never met him. Those people who only knew him through his music.
He was an inspiration for us all. He will forever live in our hearts and through his music. He will always make us smile and laugh. He will make us cry and feel. Today we all cry, smile, laugh, and remember as one the amazing Michael. We love you michael you will forever live on.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Should I get a twitter?
So many wonderful things to do on the Internet right? Well I have a myspace. I used to have a tagged account, I have a Gaia account, I have a google account, yahoo account, msn account... How many things can one person add.. poetry, games, and chatting and making friends. Twitter is the new online craze. Everyone including opera has an account....
But is it right for me? What is twitter anyway? Is a place where friends will actually talk to you? Myspace is just not responding anymore... friends don't talk to me. My husband doesn't even message me anymore...hmm. You are supposed to be able to meet people and stay connected right? Well I don't know myspace was supposed to do that and what happened? It got lame people!
A sight for innocent communication between friends became a place teens and young adults flocked too along with kidnappers and child molesters. Now its a game sight basically for lame games ( haha i rhymed) where people battle and try and kill or kick the ass of other myspacer's....
Why cant people just become friends and talk not suck the blood of the demonic people or shoot up there long time friends gang all online in imaginary role play? OH MY HELL PEOPLE GET A GRIP! SERIOUSLY!
So is Twitter just going to end up like the rest?
But is it right for me? What is twitter anyway? Is a place where friends will actually talk to you? Myspace is just not responding anymore... friends don't talk to me. My husband doesn't even message me anymore...hmm. You are supposed to be able to meet people and stay connected right? Well I don't know myspace was supposed to do that and what happened? It got lame people!
A sight for innocent communication between friends became a place teens and young adults flocked too along with kidnappers and child molesters. Now its a game sight basically for lame games ( haha i rhymed) where people battle and try and kill or kick the ass of other myspacer's....
Why cant people just become friends and talk not suck the blood of the demonic people or shoot up there long time friends gang all online in imaginary role play? OH MY HELL PEOPLE GET A GRIP! SERIOUSLY!
So is Twitter just going to end up like the rest?
Husbands... grrr..
My husband can help all he wants. He can serve me my food on a gold platter or give me my every desire all he wants. I have no problam with me sitting on my butt all day sleeping or watching tv.
But what really irritates me is when I deside I dont want to live in a pig sty so i decide to help out a little. I asked for a couple days for him to do the dishes.... he was to busy to do them... playing those games on myspace and trying to get in my pants!!
I decide fine I wont get pissed I will just do them myself its cool. I'm in the kitchen anyway. So I open the dish washer..... Now I have like an OCD thing when I do dishes... we all do the dish washer our own way but...
so i see the dish washer and i am getting pissed. There are still dishes in there that should have been washed and put away all ready. It has all been put in the dish washer wrong. So I have to take everything out and put it back in the way I have to have my dishwasher! I get it all done...
Then I relize trash needs to be taken out.. Its over flowing... I asked him to take it out days ago kinda like the dishes.. so i decide i will sweep and mop the floors to. He comes home for his lunch break all sweaty and smelly.. and hungry.
OH CRAP!! He runs into the kitchen and re heats the hotdogs from last night and dirties my clean swept kitchen floor, and crumbs on my counter.. I thought i just did dishes hello. Then he tries to check his mail and gets the on button jammed so he and i have to take it apart . Of course I know how to take it apart and fix it fast and easy. But he has to be all manely and do it the hard way by shutting everything off and unplugging everything. We get it fixed...but even more happened yesterday.
HOUSTON HE BROKE THE TOLIET SEAT!! My husband has knee problems and sometimes the lock and he goes down! So yesterday afternoon, he got up to go to the bathroom. Apparently his knee locked, he went down and hit his head on the toliet. Not knowing that he broke the seat, he goes back to the daily routine.. NOT TELLING ME ABOUT THIS! I end up answering natures call. So I sit down and nearly go flying into the trash and cabnet because the seat is broke!
Not the best day for me I must say. The screw to fix the toliet seat is broke. We have no super glue. The computer power button is permantly going to get stuck till it can be fixed. The whole house needs a good cleaning. Running out of food I still need to call the hospital for a payment plan. I have $1.71 to my name untill my husband gets paid thursday. He thinks hes so good at penny pinching when hes not. He bought oreos yesterday when we could have used that money for something else. I send him to the store for choclate syrup he comes back with oreo's and syrup and energy drinks and whatever... its really pissing me off but i dont know how to tell him I dont like his spending habits or the way hes smoking all the ciggarettes! I smoke to asshole!
he does laundrey dumps it on the floor grabs what he needs for work and leaves the rest scattered on the floor for me to fold.. Happy fu*king fourth of july people... somebody give me a gun and 2 bullets in case i miss my head and it starts takeing to long for me to die. aahhhhhhhhh... Husbands!! How come the women of the world just dont take over and put all the men in an underground lair and only use them for reproduction and heavy lifting? sounds like a plan to me... Today my husband can sleep on the fricken floor. Ha Ha sucker thats what you get for not paying attention to me!!!!!!!!!!! MWAHAHAHA.
But what really irritates me is when I deside I dont want to live in a pig sty so i decide to help out a little. I asked for a couple days for him to do the dishes.... he was to busy to do them... playing those games on myspace and trying to get in my pants!!
I decide fine I wont get pissed I will just do them myself its cool. I'm in the kitchen anyway. So I open the dish washer..... Now I have like an OCD thing when I do dishes... we all do the dish washer our own way but...
so i see the dish washer and i am getting pissed. There are still dishes in there that should have been washed and put away all ready. It has all been put in the dish washer wrong. So I have to take everything out and put it back in the way I have to have my dishwasher! I get it all done...
Then I relize trash needs to be taken out.. Its over flowing... I asked him to take it out days ago kinda like the dishes.. so i decide i will sweep and mop the floors to. He comes home for his lunch break all sweaty and smelly.. and hungry.
OH CRAP!! He runs into the kitchen and re heats the hotdogs from last night and dirties my clean swept kitchen floor, and crumbs on my counter.. I thought i just did dishes hello. Then he tries to check his mail and gets the on button jammed so he and i have to take it apart . Of course I know how to take it apart and fix it fast and easy. But he has to be all manely and do it the hard way by shutting everything off and unplugging everything. We get it fixed...but even more happened yesterday.
HOUSTON HE BROKE THE TOLIET SEAT!! My husband has knee problems and sometimes the lock and he goes down! So yesterday afternoon, he got up to go to the bathroom. Apparently his knee locked, he went down and hit his head on the toliet. Not knowing that he broke the seat, he goes back to the daily routine.. NOT TELLING ME ABOUT THIS! I end up answering natures call. So I sit down and nearly go flying into the trash and cabnet because the seat is broke!
Not the best day for me I must say. The screw to fix the toliet seat is broke. We have no super glue. The computer power button is permantly going to get stuck till it can be fixed. The whole house needs a good cleaning. Running out of food I still need to call the hospital for a payment plan. I have $1.71 to my name untill my husband gets paid thursday. He thinks hes so good at penny pinching when hes not. He bought oreos yesterday when we could have used that money for something else. I send him to the store for choclate syrup he comes back with oreo's and syrup and energy drinks and whatever... its really pissing me off but i dont know how to tell him I dont like his spending habits or the way hes smoking all the ciggarettes! I smoke to asshole!
he does laundrey dumps it on the floor grabs what he needs for work and leaves the rest scattered on the floor for me to fold.. Happy fu*king fourth of july people... somebody give me a gun and 2 bullets in case i miss my head and it starts takeing to long for me to die. aahhhhhhhhh... Husbands!! How come the women of the world just dont take over and put all the men in an underground lair and only use them for reproduction and heavy lifting? sounds like a plan to me... Today my husband can sleep on the fricken floor. Ha Ha sucker thats what you get for not paying attention to me!!!!!!!!!!! MWAHAHAHA.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
what it means.....
What does it mean to be the oldest child? I know what it means because I am the oldest child. I think it means you are responsible for more than your share. It means you are supposed to protect and support the younger ones. It means you are the test trial child... so you basically get off easy on everything. Basically! It means that when the beatings are comeing and you know its going to be bad... you take the blame for fear of the younger syblings well being. It means that you are the one to be the free babysitter and handy maid. It means you will hate and fight with your parents the most. It means you will argue and very much dislike the annoying pest you call brother or/and sister.
It means you are the strongest, the hero, and the one everyone will lean on.
What does it mean to be a young struggling wife? It means you stress the most. Dont want anyhting to do with cuddleing or sex. You want to cry all the time but you put on a brave happy face for your husband. You clip coupons and remake the budget everyweek just to try and save more. If you get sick you pretend its allergies and ignore it. You keep a clean house and a hot meal. You pretend nothing is wrong when you wanna scream what happend to all the jobs and what happened to us? You wanna just be held tight and pop some asprin and go to sleep for a long while. Because you know if your asleep your not stressing over how are you going to eat this month..
What does it mean to have no friends? It means that you stay home every weekend. It means you have your homework done on time because there is nothing better to do. It means you watch every disney or childhood movie you have. It means you feel alone and cry late at night when everyone is asleep. It means your adult life is hard but your teen years are harder because there is no outlet to laugh and have fun.
What does it mean to love? The hardest question to answer in life. In order to love you must love yourself... everyone says it I know. But to love, its sweet its amazing and Its not all its cracked up to be.. To love means many things and everyone has an opinion. Love means 50/50. You give yourself to that person in the most sensual and self-less way. You will give your life for that person to be happy.. You will wait till you die for that person. You will work your butt off so that person will have what he or she desires most. You will fight more with that person than anyone because you love them. Then you will make up in the sweetest way possible, just so in the future you will fight again. You will follow that person to the end of the earth.. but next week you will problably fight and sleep in different rooms. You make breakfast in bed or do the laundry or make dinner... so that the other person may smile. You say please and thankyou. You love eachother so much, you are brutally honest to eachother. Yet if one cries the other will do something so stupid or crazy you just have to laugh. Love is a constant battle. A battle of who loves who more. It is fun times and screaming and crying. So what does it really mean to love? It means to really live.
It means you are the strongest, the hero, and the one everyone will lean on.
What does it mean to be a young struggling wife? It means you stress the most. Dont want anyhting to do with cuddleing or sex. You want to cry all the time but you put on a brave happy face for your husband. You clip coupons and remake the budget everyweek just to try and save more. If you get sick you pretend its allergies and ignore it. You keep a clean house and a hot meal. You pretend nothing is wrong when you wanna scream what happend to all the jobs and what happened to us? You wanna just be held tight and pop some asprin and go to sleep for a long while. Because you know if your asleep your not stressing over how are you going to eat this month..
What does it mean to have no friends? It means that you stay home every weekend. It means you have your homework done on time because there is nothing better to do. It means you watch every disney or childhood movie you have. It means you feel alone and cry late at night when everyone is asleep. It means your adult life is hard but your teen years are harder because there is no outlet to laugh and have fun.
What does it mean to love? The hardest question to answer in life. In order to love you must love yourself... everyone says it I know. But to love, its sweet its amazing and Its not all its cracked up to be.. To love means many things and everyone has an opinion. Love means 50/50. You give yourself to that person in the most sensual and self-less way. You will give your life for that person to be happy.. You will wait till you die for that person. You will work your butt off so that person will have what he or she desires most. You will fight more with that person than anyone because you love them. Then you will make up in the sweetest way possible, just so in the future you will fight again. You will follow that person to the end of the earth.. but next week you will problably fight and sleep in different rooms. You make breakfast in bed or do the laundry or make dinner... so that the other person may smile. You say please and thankyou. You love eachother so much, you are brutally honest to eachother. Yet if one cries the other will do something so stupid or crazy you just have to laugh. Love is a constant battle. A battle of who loves who more. It is fun times and screaming and crying. So what does it really mean to love? It means to really live.
FIRST BLOG ENTRY!!! WOO HOO!
Hello,
Welcome to my new blog. My life has been a difficult road as I am sure most everyone's has been. Some of the stuff I deside to share may be quite difficult to belive. Also it may be hard for some to read. So be fore warned.
Not all life has been hard for me. Just recently I married the man of my dreams. Some may think I am to young to know just yet. But he is my best friend and I know that he is "the one". I know that is so sterotypical of me...
I am 18 years old I am working on finding a job and trying to survive this harsh world. I live with my mom at the momment. We just moved so yeah.
Anyway I love to read and write. I love the internet. I love to watch movies. I love disney and dance movies the best. I like to many things and I have many talents.
I came here to share with the world my life story and hopefully meet some people who have gone through simular or the same situations as me and maybe help those who are still going through life..
Lets start shall we and i will go on to more detail in further blogs.
My biological father cheated and left my mom before i was born. My mom remarried and my step-father sexually mollested me. I was diagnosed with ulcer-rativecolitis at the age of 10, when I was 15 I was diagnosed with diabeties. I had surgery to have my large intestine removed when I was 17 and had my small intestine reconnected. A couple of weeks after my second surgery I overdosed. Then I started dateing my now husband..
We got married in April. Amonth ago I found out I was pregnate. We moved. I started spotting and 3 weeks ago I had a miscarrage. It has been hard on both of us. We still try and push it out of our minds and are still trying to set up payment plans and are trying to figure out how to pay the hospital bill. I seen the over 3,000 dollars and I cried.
That is the short story of my life .. look for more in my next blogs of life.
Welcome to my new blog. My life has been a difficult road as I am sure most everyone's has been. Some of the stuff I deside to share may be quite difficult to belive. Also it may be hard for some to read. So be fore warned.
Not all life has been hard for me. Just recently I married the man of my dreams. Some may think I am to young to know just yet. But he is my best friend and I know that he is "the one". I know that is so sterotypical of me...
I am 18 years old I am working on finding a job and trying to survive this harsh world. I live with my mom at the momment. We just moved so yeah.
Anyway I love to read and write. I love the internet. I love to watch movies. I love disney and dance movies the best. I like to many things and I have many talents.
I came here to share with the world my life story and hopefully meet some people who have gone through simular or the same situations as me and maybe help those who are still going through life..
Lets start shall we and i will go on to more detail in further blogs.
My biological father cheated and left my mom before i was born. My mom remarried and my step-father sexually mollested me. I was diagnosed with ulcer-rativecolitis at the age of 10, when I was 15 I was diagnosed with diabeties. I had surgery to have my large intestine removed when I was 17 and had my small intestine reconnected. A couple of weeks after my second surgery I overdosed. Then I started dateing my now husband..
We got married in April. Amonth ago I found out I was pregnate. We moved. I started spotting and 3 weeks ago I had a miscarrage. It has been hard on both of us. We still try and push it out of our minds and are still trying to set up payment plans and are trying to figure out how to pay the hospital bill. I seen the over 3,000 dollars and I cried.
That is the short story of my life .. look for more in my next blogs of life.
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