SIGH... MOTHER IN LAWS!!

THE IRRATEING THING ABOUT MY MOTHER IN LAW!! She is littarly a selfish human being that seriously needs to be shot and put down!! She knows how to hit every nereve and act so innocent like shes the fricken victim when its her fault in the first place why shes in the position she's in...


I dont want to hear her crap about how she got picked on at work or how she is haveing so much trouble paying her bills when her take home is over 2,000. It is total B. capital S. I am 13 weeks pregnant trying to stay healthy and stress free and what does she do......


practically sign mine and my babies death certificate..!!!!!!!!!!! You may ask how and wonder why how could someone do something so horrible!! Let me tell you why im gonna die....





I am a diabetic pregnant 13 weeks now.... I have been on baby your baby insurance... i was told it would only last a month.. my husband applied for medicaid and state aid... we were required to have his mothers pay stubs... something simple that takes maybe 15 minutes tops.... WELLLL.... for nearly 2 months now we have been asking reminding practically begging her to get these for us... she thinks its more important to cuddle up or get laid by her fiance or its more important to help my brother in law or bitch about how she doesnt have enough money.....

So now we owe a months worth of doctors appointments..two ER visits and now i cant get my insulin and other prescriptions on top of now i cant get a pump or the things nesscary for a successful pregnancy.... please just consider me dead!! It is shameful, selfish, caniving and just plain wrong for this to happen! how could she hate us soo much? what could have taken 15min.. is now costing thousands of dollars... i cant get a job and my husband cant find one. What the hell am i supposed to do?? dont stress out dont do this dont do that and its not even my fault that im gonnna die?? I am tempted to go move in with my mom at least she has her priorities straight... she doesnt care if it means that she will miss the first 2 min. of a date or she will be just that much later home from work... and she might miss the beging of the news... I just want to break down and cry at the cruelty of the people in this world... i dont know what to do.... help me!!

I am gonna go now and cry for my mommy

Crystal Moon, new book, other

I have just recently read a new book called Crystal Moon. It was a really amazing book if you like the young adult and fantasy books. I love those books like Fable Haven and Narnia and of course Twilight. They are really good series. I guess I have been reading alot of series books lately. The next one can never come out fast enough.
I have had a rough day today. We finalized the papers for our apartment. We still have to bring a few things Sat. before we can get the key's. It took forever to get our renters insurance info. We had to pay in order to get our info and my husband and mom don't get along so its been really hard because I am stuck in the middle. I hear from both of them about the other one and I hate it.
I want to agree with both of them and i disagree with both of them. I am beyond stress I am PMS'ing and I don't care anymore!No one is looking at my blog.
I just can't stand that no one talks to me on myspace anymore so I am debating on deleting it. I can't wait to move out cause hopefully then my husband will be happier.
GOOD THINGS: I shall take this moment to reflect on this week's good things!
1 I got my husband to go swimming in the pool with me.
2 I am going to be able to fix my car.
3 I have been able to spend time with my mom and have fun.
4 Our rent was only $99 so we saved 300.
5 I finally got a hold of my cousin to help us Sunday!
6 I made a new friend who happens to be the author of Crystal Moon (Awesome book)
7 I was invited to a new sight about books! I love it.
8 I was able to watch Coraline and it was great.
9 I made burgers and steak fries! Yumm!!
10 I figured out that we will be able to save a good deal of money depending on how we spend it.
11 My husband found a beautiful book case next to the dumpster and now it is mine! mwahahahaha

So that is my good reflections for this week. I think I will make it my goal to try and reflect all the good things that happen in my week and write them down. I am hoping to get a journal a really nice one for my birthday and a couple good movies and books! Wow reflecting made me feel better. Talk at ya later. Autumn

Moving out.

Hey everybody! I'm so excited! We are moving on the first to our own apartment. We are very excited... My husband just got his one month review and well I have to tell you, KING SOOPER SUCKS! I think they are harrassing him. He is faster than alot of his co-workers and they put all the mess up's on him. They basically told him if he doesnt get faster and doesnt do everything right that they will fire him. I think thats stupid considering.
He wants to get a new job but in about a year we will have insurance and I dont want him to quit or give up but its his dissision. When we move I intend to get a job. Maybe at a different kings just so we can have extra cash and insurance. Also incase he gets a different job I know we have enough money to make the bills and stuff. This really worries and bothers me. I dont know whats going to happen.

GOAL: Three weeks

My goal is for me and my husband to move out in three weeks. I hope we can do this. He got hired at another job. So now he works two full time jobs. I just hope he has enough time to sleep and eat between jobs. I might have to get a job too. We got another bill today. It was for the doctor alone. $710.00 I hate this. We already have two different bills on payment plans I tried to call today and put this one on a payment plan. They just told me that I need to go to the hospital and get charity.. Its stupid and it doesnt make any sense.
I hope I can figure it this is out.

The Condom! A funny Story

This is a very funny story. Today I spent the day with my mom. We had alot of fun. Then I came home..
My husband was acting strange and very worried and depressed. We went outside and talked. Apparently he had found a condom by the bathroom and his first thought was that I was cheating on him. It hurt at the time because I would never do something like that to him.
I didn't know where it had come from. Neither did he know either. We went inside still stressed and confused about this fricken condom. Where had it come from and how did it get here?
My mom asked me what was wrong. At first I was a little reluctant to tell her. I caved and told her that my husband had found a condom. She started laughing.
She told me about how she had found two of my condoms that she had given me from like forever ago. Also how she had put them in a basket in the closet. The same basket that I had grabbed some razors from the other day. It made total sense and I started to laugh.
When I grabbed the razors I must have grabbed the condom too. I didn't see it and it must have slipped out when I took them to the bathroom. I told my husband and he was so relived about this. He didn't laugh because he was stressing so much over this condom that it made him sick.
My mom couldn't stop giggling because she wished he would have thought that they might be hers. We wouldn't think of that one because she hasn't dated forever.. lol. I look back and think its hilarious!!

Rest In Piece Michael Jackson..

I know that right now everyone is going crazy over the untimely death of M.J. We all loved him and watched him grow up from a young man to "The King of Pop". He was truly an amazing human being. I know it has been hard on us. His music was a miracle to our race.
I know for me his music always made me smile. It kept me strong and smiling when I was sick. I would dance or even clean house while listening to his powerful voice. He did so much for everyone across the world. But he never knew just how much he did for his fans. The people who weren't part of his charities, the ones who never met him. Those people who only knew him through his music.
He was an inspiration for us all. He will forever live in our hearts and through his music. He will always make us smile and laugh. He will make us cry and feel. Today we all cry, smile, laugh, and remember as one the amazing Michael. We love you michael you will forever live on.

Should I get a twitter?

So many wonderful things to do on the Internet right? Well I have a myspace. I used to have a tagged account, I have a Gaia account, I have a google account, yahoo account, msn account... How many things can one person add.. poetry, games, and chatting and making friends. Twitter is the new online craze. Everyone including opera has an account....
But is it right for me? What is twitter anyway? Is a place where friends will actually talk to you? Myspace is just not responding anymore... friends don't talk to me. My husband doesn't even message me anymore...hmm. You are supposed to be able to meet people and stay connected right? Well I don't know myspace was supposed to do that and what happened? It got lame people!
A sight for innocent communication between friends became a place teens and young adults flocked too along with kidnappers and child molesters. Now its a game sight basically for lame games ( haha i rhymed) where people battle and try and kill or kick the ass of other myspacer's....
Why cant people just become friends and talk not suck the blood of the demonic people or shoot up there long time friends gang all online in imaginary role play? OH MY HELL PEOPLE GET A GRIP! SERIOUSLY!
So is Twitter just going to end up like the rest?